Kyla shares heartbreaking experiences of miscarriage: ‘Gusto kong mag-give up’


Filipina singer-songwriter Kyla became emotional as she opened up about experiencing miscarriages in the past.

In her recent interview with Ogie Diaz uploaded on his YouTube channel last Wednesday, Oct. 11, the R&B singer recalled losing her pregnancy twice in the same year back in 2018.

“That year 2018, twice akong na-miscarriage. I started a year with miscarriage and I ended the year with another miscarriage,” Kyla told Ogie in tears.

“Medyo heartbreaking po ‘yun kasi sobrang gustong-gusto namin na masundan si Toby talaga. Gustong-gusto niyang magkaron ng kapatid talaga. As in nagre-request siya ng brother,” she added.

Toby is the only son of Kyla with her husband Rich Alvarez. They recently celebrated their child’s 10th birthday last May.

Kyla lamented about losing children for several times, saying: “Mahirap po ‘yung feeling na nawawalan. Something that you’ve prayed for, you hoped for and you wanted. Tapos biglang, parang ibinigay sa’yo tapos kinuha ulit. Tapos you have to go through that over and over again.”

The singer has already gone through four miscarriages since 2018. Ogie mentioned that the singer would already have five children if her past pregnancies had been successful.

“Everytime na nagmi-miscarriage ako, gusto kong mag-give up. Ayokong gumalaw, ayokong lumabas, ayokong may kausap, ayaw ko ng tao. Ayaw kong magtrabaho. Wala akong gana,” Kyla spoke candidly about her struggles with her miscarriages.

Nonetheless, she mentioned that they are still hoping to have more children in the future.

“Kasi gustong-gusto ko talaga ng maraming anak. Mahilig po ako sa bata ‘e. Gustong-gusto ko po yung nagbibigay ng pagmamahal lalo na sa anak. Feeling ko kasi I have so much to give,” she said.

She continued, “In my heart, naglo-long pa rin ako for another kid. Gusto ko pa rin talaga na mabigyan ng kapatid si Toby. Pero sabi ko, kung gusto talaga ni Lord na i-bless kami with another baby, feeling ko kahit walang treatment.”

The former Tawag ng Tanghalan judge couldn’t help her tears as she shared the emotional journey of loss and grief in associating rainy days with her lost children.

“‘Pag umuulan po. Feeling ko ‘pag naririnig ko yung mga patak ng ulan, feeling ko ‘yung mga anak ko naglalaro. Nandiyan lang ‘yung mga anak ko. Narirnig ko sila sa mga raindrops. Parang feeling ko footsteps nila ‘yun. Tumatakbo sila,” Kyla said.

Patricia Dela Roca
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