Online personality and trans beauty queen Lars Pacheco admitted that she cheated three times on her longtime boyfriend, Clyde Vivas, before finally deciding to end their seven-year relationship.
On her Facebook page, Lars posted a five-minute video candidly addressing questions and speculations surrounding their split.
Her statement came just hours after Clyde revealed on social media that Lars had left him without any explanation, leaving only a letter while he was asleep.
“I really want to end this all today, lahat ng questions, lahat ng haka-haka,” Lars began in her video. “Kasi gusto kong matapos agad ito, like, ‘Kanino ka nag-cheat, sino yung mga yan?’”
According to the former Miss Q&A Queen from It’s Showtime, the first time she cheated was during a night out with a friend in Makati City, where she met a Taiwanese national.
“I was really drunk and then there’s this Taiwanese guy that joined in our table. And then I just woke up, katabi ko na siya sa bed,” she recalled, admitting the intimate act was a choice she made.
“It happened because, of course, I chose it to happen. That’s the first one that I cheated on Clyde.”
The following day, Clyde was the one who fetched her, unaware of what happened, “I acted like nothing happened. Sinundo niya pa ako, hinanap niya pa ako.”
The second time occurred when Lars was out of town and exchanged numbers with a man she met at a bar.
“There’s this guy that (kept) looking at me, and I looked at him as well. Just after that party, he messaged me and I was just, like, out of nowhere, I don’t know… I just gave my number and then I told him na doon siya mag-contact because Clyde has access in my Instagram,” Pacheco recounted.
“Siguro isang buwan din na nag-uusap kami. And what made me really decide that I really need to let Clyde go is because of this guy,” she revealed further, adding that she eventually developed feelings for him even though their interactions were limited to online chats and they never met in person.
“I’m falling in love with that man, with that guy. I just fall in love with him without talking personally. That’s the huge part of the decision na, ‘T’ng*na, nai-in love ako sa iba,'” Lars confessed, saying that she was not proud of her actions.
She admitted falling for him even without deep conversations made her realize she was missing the feeling of “kilig.”
“Na-miss ko yung pakiramdam na kiligin. Na-miss ko yung pakiramdam na may magtatanong sa akin kung ano nangyari sa araw ko, kung okay ba ako… Basta, I miss the feeling of being, you know, important to someone.”
The third, which Lars described as the “worst,” was when she asked Clyde himself to drop her off so she could meet a Portuguese man.
“This is the worst that I can’t somehow forgive myself. Nagpahatid ako kay Clyde to meet someone. And, yeah, it happened,” she admitted.
Lars said that this third time was the breaking point that made her decide to finally end things with Clyde.
“And then that made a decision, if I still love him, I wouldn’t do such things. Kung papatagalin ko pa relasyon namin, feeling ko, in the end, it will just be just f**k*d up,” she lamented their relationship.
Lars reiterated that she is not sharing her story out of pride but because she wants to put an end to speculations and move forward from her mistakes, admitting that she cheated on Clyde and said she is ready to face whatever consequences may come from her infidelity.
“You know, I take full accountability. I know I did what I did. I’m not proud of it. It’s my mistake. I cheated, I know. But I don’t know why. Hindi ko alam kung naghahanap ba ako ng attention. Hindi ko alam kung ubos na ba yung kilig, ubos na ba yung… hindi ko alam.”
“And I’m saying this because I want to end the haka-haka and all. This is the answer, coming straight from my mouth, not in any other people’s mouth.”
On Wednesday night, Aug. 20, Lars shocked her followers when she first announced her breakup with Clyde, sharing a black-and-white photo of them hugging.
Her short caption read: “7 years it was. No regrets just memories made. I wish you healing. I wish myself forgiveness.”
